I am sorry to hear of your battle with Alzheimer's. Fight as hard as you can and never give up. I surmise from the picture of your stick you are a believer; take to heart Peter's words to the churches "humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you."
Do you have any idea what kind of wood your sticks are?